
As our last day was Shabbat, it is only appropriate to relate our service to this week’s parshah, Vayikra. Vayikra is the first portion in the Book of Leviticus, which is traditionally known as a book of laws for Jewish living. The portion gets its name from the first word in the book, Vayikra, which means “And he called (to Moses).” What has occupied the attention of many rabbis is the unusual appearance of the word, which ends with an aleph that is smaller than other Alephs within the Torah. Why this deviation from the norm? What significance does this small aleph have for our understanding of the portion, Leviticus, or Judaism at large? And what can we as students on a service trip expect to take away from a detail as seemingly irrelevant as the size of a letter?
At first glance, there seems to be little take-away. Maybe Moses got distracted — after all, there was much to occupy his attention at Sinai as he helped provide our people with their first taste of freedom. Maybe the letter got shortened in an old scroll, and subsequent scribes simply copied it out of a reluctance to alter their base text. Even if the lesser letter had some greater significance, certainly its relevance has diminished in the thousands of years since our Law was delivered to us, through Moses, at Sinai.
And yet, on further reflection, there is much that happened at Sinai that continues to affect our daily lives. We continue to observe the ten commandments, to rest on Shabbat, and to give blessings over bread and wine. There is a tradition that in the Torah every detail down to the last letter is important and there for a reason. Why, then, would this word, this letter, be any different? While it is not obvious prima facie, it is important to delve into the text to understand why this was written the way it was written, and what it means for our post-Sinai world. While having Shabbat dinner with an Israeli family, I was offered two explanations that shed light on the meaning of this letter and its importance to our understanding of our week serving our Jewish brothers and sisters in Nahariyya.
The first explanation — the one which I most prefer — argues that when God commanded Moses to write the Torah, Moses wanted to write “Vayikar,” the meaning of which roughly translates to “And He (God) happened upon.” In so saying, the text would imply not that Moses was explicitly chosen from all of the people of Israel but rather that he happened to be in the right place at the right time. This is entirely consistent with our understanding of Moses’s Jewish leadership; after all, when called by God in Exodus, he protests, arguing that he does not possess the spiritual or physical capacity to meet God’s demands. Humility is a central tenet of Mosaic leadership, and understanding him as wanting to write “Vayikar” only heightens our understanding of this.
As the story goes, God refused to allow this. He had chosen Moses for a reason, and he intended for the text to reflect that. Forbidden from writing Vayikar, Moses then decided to obey God but retain his sense of humility through the tiny aleph.
While this is a beautiful example of humble leadership on its own, it also sheds light on our service journey in Nahariyya. In our group reflections, we discussed Maimonides’s ladder of Tzedakah, which explains the different levels of giving and which are, in his opinion, considered higher than others. During our discussion, Conor mentioned that with each subsequent rung on the ladder, one was moving closer and closer toward removing the ego. While the first rung is giving reluctantly, which implies a strong egoistic presence, the second rung includes giving, though less than one should, which involves slightly less. Subsequent rungs include giving without knowing to whom one is giving or from whom one receives, which is a complete negation of the ego. The highest rung — helping another become self-sufficient– is not only a removal of all ego and personal sense of fulfillment but also ensures an eventual cessation in the differentiation between the self — the ego — and the other by putting both on equal grounds. During our service, we and the JDC have tried to provide the tools to make others self-sufficient by improving their homes and inculcating positive values in teens and children to help them make good choices for their future.
Poignantly, Aleph is intimately connected to ego, as it forms the beginning of the word “I,” ani. Just as Maimonides asks us to no longer differentiate ourselves from those we are helping, so too, does Moses try to avoid differentiating between himself and anyone else in the Jewish community. By emphasizing “Vayikar,” Moses tries to assert that he is no different from those who were not spoken to by God; instead, he was simply there at the right place and the right time. It’s a valuable lesson; instead of thinking of our service as us, or “I,” helping them, or “you,” we should strive to meet Moses’s example of humble service. While those whose homes we improved and whose company we kept felt a personal sense of fulfillment from our service, so, too, did we feel a personal sense of fulfillment from their company, and their assistance. This was not us giving to them. It was we giving to we — a perfect embodiment of Moses’s humble example.
That is the first interpretation of the small aleph; however, another exists that provides a different perspective on our service. As previously mentioned, Vayikra opens the Book of Leviticus, which is a book of laws. According to this second interpretation, the tiny aleph represents children and students who are just at the beginning of their learning of the Law. Representative of how much they need to grow, the aleph begins small; it is only by completing the book that one can grow to understand the true meaning of the Law.
For many of us, this trip has constituted our first major service project. In that sense, we are all starting as small alephs in our service to the Jewish community; but all that means is that we have a lot of room to grow, and an entire book of future service to write. While we may not be able to solve all issues in the world, we should not be frustrated by this; instead, we should take refuge in the fact that we all must start small, and we all must work as hard as we can to improve the world, even if we can not fix it entirely. As Pirkei Avot tells us, “It is not our responsibility to finish the work, but we are not free to desist from it either.“ It is up to us to live up to that standard, and, through our experiences this trip, it is safe to say we all will try.